I like making playlists in iTunes.
Some are time specific--Middle School Dance.
Or genre specific--Popular phase rockness.
Some are mood specific--Calming.
Remind me of a place--Camp associations.
Or a general idea of a life situation--Cheesy Lovely.
Sometimes I pick a word for a theme--Mail call.
Or my general mood--Nonsense syllables.
There are over 50 lists (after that I stopped counting).
Exactly two are named after people. Created to remind me of our relationship.
Two friends who never met each other. At one point I'm sure they knew of each other.
The two friends who attended camp with me for years (different camps). The ones who my college friends heard stories about when I talked about my childhood.
The two friends from my life before high school who I have any semblance of contact with now. Though it's pretty scarce.
One of them got married a few weeks ago. I went to the wedding because I needed that connection with my past. It's selfish, but made sense. Processing my emotions from her wedding has made me think more about the other one.
During tenth grade we e-mailed daily. In addition to frequent IM conversations. When I wrote him last weekend my subject, "Want more than an annual check-in," sums up our current communication.
Hearing back from him brightened my day. He's engaged now, to a girl I only know of from college away messages. And I'm happy for him. And happy that I'm happy. (I really was a mix of emotions after the wedding.)
I'm listening to my mix named after him. It must sound random to my housemate, but it makes me smile. Screaming summer. And dancing. And laughing at ourselves. Songs that became the subjects of our e-mails to each other. (I attribute my country music playlist to him.) Songs from away messages. Smiling in the comfort that while these songs don't describe either of us in our current lives they capture a snapshot of my past. It's nice to know that no matter how out of touch we are, some things don't change.
2 comments:
beautiful post
Hehe. Thanks mm.
Totally separate...
All about the ginger today. I went elsewhere for dinner. Hanging out beforehand the host comes over with this bowl telling me to "you need to try this." Apparently he'd brewed ginger beer this weekend and this was the leftover grated ginger. Yummy.
Had a sip of the ginger beer, think I might have actually found a beer that I could enjoy.
Once I got home, I dug out my chocolate covered ginger and have been snacking since.
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