Just so we're clear

I called you because I wanted you to be the person I called at times like these. And I needed to establish that for myself one last time.

Seems like things might change. I don't know. I'm excited and eager and anxious and afraid. And as much as I want to move on, I don't want things to change with you. Well, I guess I don't mind if things change. I just don't want any acceleration. I like the current velocity of our relationship. We've got a good pace of change in a direction I like. I'm okay with continuing that.

But I don't trust myself, or, for that matter, you, to be able to carry on in the midst of whatever else might be going on. So I call you. One more time. So that I can know that you are (or were) the person I call at times like this.